my Heart Songs

Would by Alice in Chains

It's likely that this is about going through life's path: "We face the path of time," and believing things that aren't true at some point of our lives: "We chase misprinted lies." It is also saying that at one point or another, you could wind up without any friends: "And yet I fight, and yet I fight this battle all alone. No one to cry to, no place to call home." You will have to do some things in life without any guidance.

Back to Black by Amy Winehouse

It's about a troubled love affair, where the guy leaves her for his ex.

In the Garage by Weezer

This is one of my favorites off the blue album, it's so laid back and is great live. It means a lot to me, because it's saying that when you're alone, you can just be yourself and not have to care about anyone else. Just being yourself can be the best feeling, and this song really made that clear to me.

I am not a Robot by Marina and the Diamonds

About being yourself and not conforming to society's expectations, obviously.

"Better to be hated than love, love, loved for what you're not"

--true that.

Crazy by Gnarls Barkley

This song has a very classic sound, which makes it stand out from other disposable music from today, and makes it something unique. Plus its got the ability to stick in your head and go over and over, which only backs up how good the song is.

Quick to Panic by Shiela and the Insects

"you don't turn me on, just a little bit" is stuck in my head.

Hey Jude by The Beatles

The thing that sums up this song is the lyrics "and anytime you feel the pain hey jude refrain". This is the one song that suppresses my sad moments, it has the power to calm me down.

Music and Me by Michael Jackson

Wonderful song, and his voice is so clear, so beautiful... And the lyrics... And the realization that this is a child who sings this song... it all makes it really the most beautiful and pure song I've ever heard in my life...

One Headlight by The Wall Flowers

This song is about being lost in a place you thought you used to know. Its about feeling trapped in your own life and not being able to find a way out. Its about hanging on desperately to the hope that you'll be able to make it through.

Joseph Merrick

"I am not an Elephant! I am not an animal! I am a human being! I am a man!" - Joseph Merrick

In most societies, when we see something that does not look "normal", we naturally fear it. Even if this something is hurting, sick or even dying, we run in fear because what we see is ugly. But we are drawn to these "freaks" in a way unlike no other.

This is very sad for many reasons, not the least of which is that these "freaks" usually end up in side-show attractions like Joseph Merrick did.

Joseph Carrey Merrick (Elephant Man) was born in the 1800's in England. During the fourth month of pregnancy, his mother was struck down by an elephant, and hurt. Months later, she gave birth to Joseph. He was born OK but slowly developed massive tumors all over his body causing major deformities to his face, arm and body.

At a young age he was taken by a side-show operator and spent his life being gawked at by the horrified public. He was beaten by the side-show owner, and treated like a farm dog. And because of his large head, Joseph cannot sleep like normal people; he must sleep sitting up.

One day, at age 21, he was spotted by Dr. Frederick Treves of the London hospital. Taking him away from the side-show, Treves sets Joseph up in the London hospital, to some misgivings. But once Joseph prooves himself sane, smart, and kind, he is allowed to stay for a while.

Joseph is well cared for in the hospital, and makes many friends; women, as well, even members of the Royal Family.

At the hospital, Joseph is treated humanly and is admired for his braveness and courage. Joseph lived at the hospital for about five years, as this had become his permanent home.

One day, after having tea with important people, getting presents from admirers, and making many friends, he was taken to a play at a theater: Puss in boots.

Later that night, Joseph decided that he is going to sleep like a normal person, and in doing this, he passed away.

Joseph Merrick died in his sleep as his head fell back under the weight, dislocating his neck.

Joseph was 27 years old.

This is true my form is something odd,

But blaming me is blaming God;

Could I create myself anew

I would not fail in pleasing you.

If I could reach from pole to pole

Or grasp the ocean with a span,

I would be measured by the soul;

The mind's the standard of the man.

--a poem by Joseph

Homosexuality: Is it a choice?

This is a clip from "For the Bible Tells Me So", a provocative documentary that reconciles homosexuality and Biblical scripture. To watch the whole documentary, click here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=04AVRslVRbY.

If it Kills Me

"If it Kills Me", a song by Jason Mraz, tells about a guy who loves a girl but is only mustering the courage to tell her about his feelings because they are bestfriends and she is already with someone else. Jason and Jeanine danced to this song in So You Think You Can Dance? and it was amazing!

If It Kills Me

Jason Mraz

Hello, tell me you know
Yeah, you figured me out
Something gave it away
And it would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now

And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
Cause you and I
Why, we go carrying on for hours, on and
We get along much better
Than you and your boyfriend

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

Well how long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all

Baby there's a lot that I miss
In case I'm wrong

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said I would
I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

All I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
I think it might kill me

And all I really want from you is to feel me
It's a feeling inside that keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
It might kill me

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Amusing Quotes

"Operator! Give me the number for 911."

-Homer Simpson

"I am definitely going to take a course on time management... just as soon as I can work it into my schedule."

-Louis E. Boone

"Put your hand on a hot stove for a minute, and it seems like an hour. Sit with a pretty girl for an hour, and it seems like a minute. That's relativity."
-Albert Einstein

"Those are my principles, and if you don't like them... well, I have others."

-Groucho Marx

"When I was a kid, I had two friends, they were imaginary and they would only play with each other."

-Rita Rudner

"I think we consider too much on the good luck of the early bird and not enough the bad luck of the early worm."

-Theodore Roosevelt

"You have to stay in shape. My grandmother, she started walking five miles a day when she was 60. She's 97 today and we don't know where the hell she is."

-Ellen Degeneres

"Lead me not into temptation - I can find the way myself."

-Ack J C

"Evening news is where they begin with 'Good evening', and then proceed to tell you why it isn't."

-anonymous

"Books serve to show a man that those original thoughts of his aren't very new after all."

-Abraham Lincoln

"By all means, marry. If you get a good wife, you'll become happy; if you get a bad one, you'll become a philosopher."

-Socrates

"I just broke up with someone and the last thing she said to me was, 'You'll never find anyone like me again!' I'm thinking, 'I should hope not! If I don't want you, why would I want someone like you?' "

-Larry Miller

"My neighbour asked if he could use my lawnmower and I told him of course he could, so long as he didn't take it out of my garden."

-Eric Morecambe

"Money is not the most important thing in the world. Love is. Fortunately, I love money."

-Jackie Mason

Appreciation

Mark Twain, author of great american novels Adventures of Huckleberry Finn and The Adventures of Tom Sawyer, once said "I can live for 2 months on a good compliment."

I always find myself motivated to do better when someone appreciates my work and the same goes with everyone. Whether we are willing to acknowledge it to others, or even admit it to ourselves, we all need a little praise in our lives. It is our human nature to appreciate being recognized for our accomplishments.

Never underestimate the power of sincere praise and recognition for it serves as a validation that we're on the right track. Sometimes all we need is for someone to say, "Everything's okay. You're doing the right thing." then we become inspired to go on. It is important to catch people in the act of doing good, as knowing that "someone cares" goes a long way towards making people feel a sense of purpose and serves as an incentive to do their best.

Give someone a pat on the back because they need it

Beauty is skin-deep, Ugliness is to the Bones

Real Beauty isn't what's on the outside, it sounds really cliche but its true. Most people would pick a gorgeous person over someone who lack good looks because we are all attracted to things that are beautiful to look at and want to associate ourselves with it. Then again after discovering that the person is not what you expect based from their looks, will not be able to sustain for long when you probe deeper and discover the person's beauty is just an empty shell. A person's kindness, their peaceful nature and confident attitude brings out TRUE BEAUTY that surpasses a person who only have the external beauty but deep inside they are not as beautiful , they could be very selfish , arrogant , proud and full of themselves and think they are the most desirable person on earth. This kind of superficial beauty will not last as people will age and grow old. Real beauty is on the inside, it's the content of your character, how you treat others, how you treat yourself, what you do when no one is looking and ever heard that confidence is sexy? CONFIDENCE will make you more beautiful no matter what you look like.

"You have it, I want it"

"Envy is the art of counting the other fellow's blessings instead of your own."

Most of us feel envious -- at least to some extent -- all the time without even being aware of it. Envy is clearly all around us. But what’s so bad about coveting what someone else has? On the surface, nothing. However, over time envy can eat away at you, monopolize your thoughts and make it very difficult for you to be happy with your own life.

Think about it. Why weight has become a great deal to many people? The true basis of this , is of course, envy. You have a friend who has a fit body, who seem to look good on any clothing and gets all the compliments. Then you start to want it for yourself. You become more conscious about your body, do exercise and deprive yourself from the pleasure of eating what you want. This isn't bad. In fact, envy can be good if it encourages you to do better. Letting it take over you is when envy hurts. To live with bitterness toward others just because they possess what you think you want and overlooking the good things you have.

You can be ambitious and driven to succeed without being resentful of others. Because no matter how much someone seems to have in life, they are all temporary. Money, possessions, talents, looks and youth are only on temporary loan and life is too short to look at what others have to the detriment of your own well being. These temporal things are not important in life. You can still live happily and at peace with out them.

What will you stand up for?

Gravity, throw a ball up and it comes down. It's a natural law or principle. Just as there are principles that rule the physical world, there are principles that rule the human world. These principles aren't American, Filipino or Chinese. They aren't mine or yours. They apply equally to everyone, rich or poor, old or young. They can't be bought or sold. If you live by them, you will excel. If you break them, you will fail. It's that simple.

Honesty is a principle. Service is a principle. Love is a principle. Hard work is a principle. Respect, gratitude, moderation, fairness, integrity, loyalty, and responsibility are principles. There are dozens and dozens more. They are not hard to identify. Just as a compass always points to true north, your heart will recognize true principles.

It takes faith to live by principles, especially when you see people close to you get ahead in life by lying, cheating, indulging, manipulating, and serving only themselves. What you don't see, however, is that breaking principles always catches up to them in the end.

Putting principles first is simply the most stable, immovable, unshakable foundation you can build upon. It is the key to becoming a person of character.

The EGO

Ego is the deeply ingrained, compulsive need to remain separate and superior at all times, in all places, under all circumstances. It is the part of you that has no interest whatsoever in freedom, feels victimized by life, avoids anything that contradicts its self-image, is thoroughly invested in its personal fears and desires, and lives only for itself.

Ego becomes bigger if you are successful in life. Money, education and fame create more and more ego and arrogance. The best attitude towards success is to be grateful and not be egocentric about it.

As ego grows, undesirable qualities arise: argumentative, inconsiderate, and stubborn. Learn to recognize when you are in the grip of ego. You should realize that you are limited in your perception and ego does not allow you to see what others are thinking. You need to be always looking for how ego can destroy you then you will be more balanced.

Ego kills friendship and love. Ego is being very self conscious; you are always thinking about yourself, you are not letting yourself go. When you don't let go of your ego then it becomes difficult for you to dance, to sing, in fact you will lose your life. Life is losing your ego and participating in the dance of interaction with others of participating in love. You can not love when the ego is up and this even applies to friends. An egocentric person will not have too many friends. So if you don't have friends this means there is an ego problem that you need to address.

Ego is denial. Denial is not admitting that you are wrong. Deep down in your heart you know that you goofed and you are not willing to accept within your own self and this is denial. You are in denial because it hurts the ego. If you are in denial then you will never learn because it is more important for you to protect the ego. Denial is a very self-destructive behavior, you are not going to go anywhere with denial. So you must face reality and you must suppress your ego. Then you will be learning more, then you will be authentic, then people will want to be around you.

Usually we identify ego with high self esteem; people who have money, notoriety or well educated. This ego is well understood. But ego can also produce low self esteem. We all know people who don't want to be in the public eye, they don't invite friends in their home, they don't hang out with people, and they don't want to socialize. They are hiding and why are they hiding? It is an issue of low self esteem, they don't want to be seen, and they just want to become invisible.

If you want to reach a state of bliss, then go beyond your EGO

- Dattatreya Siva Baba